Monday, April 1, 2013

Dear Brad (On Letting Go)

Dear Brad,

Words do not exist to tell you how much your positive attitude and unrelenting support of my trip to Makalu means to me.  I only hope that through your acts of love and support, I can learn to give it back when your turn to go rolls around again.  I cannot help but want to hold you back and keep you safe.  Letting you go is always the hardest thing ever as I feel so far apart.  Yet when you let me go, I feel closer to you than ever before.  Why does it work this way?

I am excited to take all the grace and calmness that you have displayed in the mountains with me on this trip.  You have a way of remaining very relaxed and calm.  You often think I do not listen to you and yet, I have heard every word and observed every move you have ever made.  All of your acts, all of your pearls of wisdom fill my toolbox.

That my love is when I flipped the switch and realized I was ready.

I love you.

Brad and Tonya at Everest BC 2006